truly sad.

Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry,
You don’t know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh, lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, coming in tales,
Heads are a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No-one ever said it would be this hard,
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessing at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me,
Oh and I rush to the start.
Running in circles, chasing tails,
And coming back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
oh its such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No-one ever said it would be so hard.

Im going back to the start.

oh, ooooo,
ah, ooooo,
oh, ooooo,
oh, ooooo

I better be paid well in the future...

The 2008-2009 school year ACADEMIC (read: tuition) costs $27,000.
Thank god I am graduating.

just wondering.

Goddess
Love fulfilled
Centered
Singular

<3

love, love, love.

Anthem of the year.

Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles that are made in China?
Feel the bright prosaic malls
In the corridors that go on and on and on

Are we blind - can we see?
We are one - incomplete
Are we blind - In the shade
Waiting for lightning - to be saved
Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again

Will those feet in modern times
Understand this world's affliction
Recognise the righteous anger
Understand this world's addiction?

I was blind - couldn't see
What was here in me
I was blind - insecure
I felt like the road was way too long, yeah
Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again, again, again, again

Cause love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that you're feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again


Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles made in China?
Will those feet in modern times
See the bright prosaic malls?
Will those feet in modern times
Recognise the heavy burden
Will those feet in modern times
Pardon me for my sins
Love is noise
Come on
-"Love is Noise" by the Verve

Two state solution.

Dear Barack Obama,
Please don't just unilaterally support Israel because that is not CHANGE.
Sincerely,
me.

I have such a terrible hacking cough that won't go away.

I miss reading for fun! I bought a few books and am currently reading The Caine Mutiny by Herman Wouk. I loved the Winds of War in junior high.

Returning to Berks on Sunday. We'll see how life goes...

Regrets.

One word: Berkeley.
Two words: Political Science.

Three words: It is okay.

Regret is such a sad emotion. But I would have been happier at a small school in a different major. I hope that I make the right choice for graduate school. That's why taking a year off is so utterly important to me right now.

"Return to Innocence." -Enigma

Dear Journal,
I haven't written for months and I never thought I would return to this blog but I'm here. And it is officially 2009. Time for resolutions, right?
Let me begin:
1. I resolve to not be late anymore.
2. I resolve to have my life be about me.
3. I resolve to meet new people and build new relationships.

Resolute and firm. It's nice to feel that way.

I'm still sad in a lot of ways but maybe things will become more clear? The passage of time might help me gain some much-needed clarity?

All I know for sure is that I am taking a year off from academia because I need to be free.

Freedom.

Free to be me.